Tuesday, October 6, 2015

Currently staring at the compose page with my favourite tunes playing in the background, thinking of how to put my feelings down in words.. but I just can't seem to. I guess the best I can do is say that I'm in a good place right now. Feeling pretty good about everything, and though I've been through this enough times to know it won't last, I'm enjoying every moment of it while I can.

I've learned to let the little things pass - definitely focusing on the good stuff, now.

Tuesday, September 15, 2015

I feel like Ron Swanson is the universe, and I am me. Every time i think the universe is treating me well and things are getting better, the universe just decides I've gotten too chummy with it and hits me with some kind of shit to let me know it doesn't really care about me. 

Am I making any sense? Don't mind me, it's 1am and I'm surviving off four hours of sleep - wish I could proudly declare that I spent my past 17 waking hours studying my butt off for mocks, but that's very, very far from the truth. I guess the fact that it took me over a minute to mentally calculate the number of hours I've been awake today is a sign that I should get to bed right about now. 

p/s: hey universe, or Ron, or my idiotic past self who decided to spend the entire weekend on YouTube - cut me some slack, please.

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

from a terribly cold and uncomfortable plane ride

In a few days, I can say Tokyo was four months ago. My birthday eight, SPM ten. There are many times I lay in bed and wonder how things could've turned out differently this year - I have bad days, and good days, and on bad ones I like to imagine this year a little more perfect than it actually is. But who knows what I would've missed out on then? I mean, there are some things that happened which I wouldn't trade anything in the world for. So I guess I'd say I'm okay with the way things turned out - I like my choices.

Thursday, August 13, 2015

CNY 2015

This blog has been running for 3.5 years, which is pretty impressive - it usually takes me about 2 years tops to realize my blog is absolutely cringe-worthy and filled with way too many of my younger self's embarrassing rants. Here's a photo of fireworks to celebrate.  

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

Meredith: There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't cause I thought I'd be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone, and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone. Because what if you learn that you need love, and then you don't have it? What if you like it, and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it, and then... it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain?

Even though no one died in the season seven ending of Grey's Anatomy, it's by far the saddest finale I've ever watched.... especially after knowing how Mer and Derek are gonna end up, four seasons down the road. 

Also, Teddy and Henry being together makes me a lot happier than I would've ever expected.

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

Lovers in Tokyo

I saw this on twitter: You know how when you're driving and it's pouring down rain, you drive under a bridge and everything stops. Everything goes silent and it's almost peaceful. Then you finally get out from under the bridge, and everything hits a little harder than before. --- You were my bridge.

But you weren't. You weren't my bridge, and maybe I wanted you to be, but I knew you weren't. And it took me a long time to finally come to terms with that. But trust me when I say, though you weren't, it's not even remotely easy for me. It isn't, I swear. Some nights, it just hits harder than usual.

Sunday, June 28, 2015

SUNMUN '15 Social Night

Let me just start by saying being 18 is pretty great. Life is drama-free now that I'm out of high school, and all I ever do nowadays is think about what to eat for lunch and when I should start studying for internals (pretty much now) - which is nice, surprisingly. I'm in college almost all day but I never feel exhausted. Despite being able to drive and all, I spend most of my free time hanging with my parents. The younger me would be so disappointed, lol. But the me right now? Yep, I think that's pretty cool. I know I say this again and again, and it's ridiculous cos I've been bursting with sunshine-y rays of positivity and contentment which is rather odd since I usually only come on here when I'm feeling down - and that just comes to show how much I'm enjoying this year. I really am.