Thursday, July 30, 2015

This is about seven months late, but I would just like to express my utmost happiness as I no longer have to attend tuition classes since I am no longer in high school. After about 7 years of going to tuition classes, I now realize how ridiculously time consuming and unnecessary they actually were. Close to nobody goes to tuition in college, yet we manage to buck up and do well anyway. It makes me frown every time I think of all the Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday nights I used to spend in tuition classes. Now, all I do at night is watch lots of tv, study, and still have time to aimlessly scroll through my phone to stay updated with everybody's rants and whatnot, just in time for bed. No biggie.


On a side note, I guess it's a good thing I haven't been here much cause that probably means I've been too busy actually living life to consume myself with deep, dark, twisty thoughts, which are no good for me anyway.

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

Meredith: There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't cause I thought I'd be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone, and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone. Because what if you learn that you need love, and then you don't have it? What if you like it, and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it, and then... it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain?

Even though no one died in the season seven ending of Grey's Anatomy, it's by far the saddest finale I've ever watched.... especially after knowing how Mer and Derek are gonna end up, four seasons down the road. 

Also, Teddy and Henry being together makes me a lot happier than I would've ever expected.

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

Lovers in Tokyo

I saw this on twitter: You know how when you're driving and it's pouring down rain, you drive under a bridge and everything stops. Everything goes silent and it's almost peaceful. Then you finally get out from under the bridge, and everything hits a little harder than before. --- You were my bridge.

But you weren't. You weren't my bridge, and maybe I wanted you to be, but I knew you weren't. And it took me a long time to finally come to terms with that. But trust me when I say, though you weren't, it's not even remotely easy for me. It isn't, I swear. Some nights, it just hits harder than usual.

Sunday, June 28, 2015

SUNMUN '15 Social Night

Let me just start by saying being 18 is pretty great. Life is drama-free now that I'm out of high school, and all I ever do nowadays is think about what to eat for lunch and when I should start studying for internals (pretty much now) - which is nice, surprisingly. I'm in college almost all day but I never feel exhausted. Despite being able to drive and all, I spend most of my free time hanging with my parents. The younger me would be so disappointed, lol. But the me right now? Yep, I think that's pretty cool. I know I say this again and again, and it's ridiculous cos I've been bursting with sunshine-y rays of positivity and contentment which is rather odd since I usually only come on here when I'm feeling down - and that just comes to show how much I'm enjoying this year. I really am.

Thursday, June 11, 2015

(The Spectacular Now)

2014 taught me a number of things. Taking a few steps back and looking at the bigger picture, it wasn't about failure - it never is, actually. It's about dreams and the places they can take you; about how when you don't dream, when you lack the ambition to achieve the things you aim for, nothing else is going to matter.
Without our dreams, we are nothing.

I spent a lot of time in the past few years being nothing - not because I didn't have dreams, but because I was not ambitious enough to pursue them. I dreamed of many things, but told myself they were out of reach, and should remain, simply, as dreams.
This year is different, I promise myself.
I'm dreaming every second I'm breathing.

Tuesday, June 2, 2015


It's already June, which is insane. Soon it'll be the end of the year, and the process of meeting new people and trying to fit in will start all over again... and I'll be nineteen, but right now I feel eleven - and I doubt that'll change much in a span of seven months.

Friday, May 29, 2015

The view from Roppongi Hills Sky Deck

"Sometimes it is the very people who no one imagines anything of who do the things no one can imagine"
(The Imitation Game)