Tuesday, January 3, 2017

Pieced together a little something to end the year.

I know it's been only three days, but I'm feeling pretty optimistic about this year. Excited for what's to come, and hoping I'll have the strength and courage to face whatever challenges that'll be thrown at me. I figured since I'll be turning 20 in a couple weeks, it's about time I stop running away from things. 

Happy New Year!
2017: Be Present

Friday, December 30, 2016


How is it that I still manage to feel this way, despite having the best year ever?
I know this is not hard. Coping with death is hard. Distance is hard. Heartbreak is hard, having disabilities is hard, realizing you've turned into someone you hate is hard, feeling directionless is hard.

But this isn't easy.

Tuesday, December 13, 2016

Panoramas are not my area of expertise..

It's the time of the year where: Christmas lights are up. I stay in bed all day. A lot of reflecting is done. Spotify's statistics are out(!). You know, the usual.
And this time around specifically, for me, it's where we're deep enough into the year that I can say for certain that I had a bloody good year - that being said, even if the last 18 days of this year don't go as well as expected (not that I have any expectations... my mantra for the past six months? expect less), considering the past twelve and a half months of absofreakinglutely goodness I've been blessed with, I'd still declare that this year has been fantastic.

Each year just keeps getting better. 
I've never felt this contented. I've reiterated how good life has been treating me so many damn times, that I'm starting to sound like a broken record. No complaints about that. 

Thursday, December 1, 2016


And to think that I was shocked we were entering the fourth quarter of 2k16. Dude, it's December. In case that doesn't drop your jaw just yet, let me spell it out for ya: it's the last month of the year. Already eleven months into the year and I still constantly mistake random little memories from 2k15 as having happened "just a couple of months ago". This whole year has been an ongoing web of messy thoughts, just going with the flow, and taking everything in as i go. I'm just hoping that making a Christmas playlist on Spotify and binge-eating gingerbread men will knock some sense of time in me. 

Sunday, November 6, 2016


Funnily enough, though I've been having way more downs than ups lately, I only ever write when I'm back on top, which is quite the contrary to my writing habits in the past; can't tell if it's a good thing that I'm giving my future self the impression of having had only good days in 2016. 

Anyhow, I'm mentally drained from the three papers I had in a single week, but so, so relieved. Things will only go up from here, I hope.  

Sunday, October 2, 2016






Goddamn breathtaking; Melaka, 9/2016

This month marks: The fourth quarter of the year (insane). Lang's Universe Of Us came out early, so that's done with. Daniela, live. The end of the semester but not quite yet the beginning of finals. Coupled with lots of good music, good food, good company, I can already tell that October is going to be great. Brb, gotta go soak in every single bit of life's beauty.

Saturday, September 10, 2016

 A bit of a Merdeka post, while I'm at it.

I've just had the most ridiculously satisfying week, it's unbelievable. Not quite sure how to feel - overwhelmed by all this goodness around me, for sure. It's insane how we're arriving at week 8 already, though; this time, last sem, I was pretty sure I'd drive myself crazy with all the workload I left to the very last minute to do. Can't say I'm much better this sem - but i suppose i'm getting used to this terrible cycle of constantly putting things off and almost instantly regretting it. And to finish up: I know we're only 10 days into the month, and i'd very much like time to slow down because I haven't managed to grasp one bit of 2016 yet, but I cannot wait for October. It's going to bring great things.

This is the point i'll look back on - where I make the mistake of letting myself have expectations, which may or may never be met. But I have to put it down somewhere in words, I just can't contain my excitement. I think I can deal with that risk (I hope).