Monday, May 25, 2015


Japan, 2015
Even at night, when Mount Fuji was barely recognizable, the view was so damn stunning.

Been back only less than 24 hours and I feel some intense withdrawals hitting me already... *curls up sadly in a tight ball* 
Only kidding. I'm counting my blessings, definitely.

Friday, May 15, 2015

Over-sized face. Terrible complexion. Tiny eyes. I'm trying to love myself, trying to look in the mirror everyday and think, "hey, I'm alright, I'm not too shabby". I really am. But why does this have to keep happening? Every time my hopes are brought up, people, people I thought I could trust my fragile, tossed-around, broken feelings with, people I finally let in, always end up hurting me. You'd think it'd start to hurt less, having happened so many times already. I want to not let it get to me. I want to not be affected. I want to love myself so damn much that I couldn't care less what others think. But the little progress I make disappears every time something like this happens. The part that sucks the most is knowing that this has been what they've been thinking of me all along, and now they can let me know that, because we have reached a stage in the friendship where they can be honest enough (to hurt me). And voila, we are back to square one.

Just when I thought things were getting better


Think not about the bad, but focus on what is good.

Thursday, May 14, 2015



T minus 5 days to PARADISE!!!
Well, my kind of paradise, at least.


Been having all the best kinds of feelings these past few days; I don't want to jinx it, but I just really need to put this down somewhere cos I'd like to remember that on this very day, I feel like this, so far, is the best year ever.

And I hope things will stay this way.

Sunday, May 10, 2015

Elyna

The one week break I had was not productive at all, but I must say I enjoyed it. I even went on a shoot - finally had some serious time with my camera after the longest hiatus ever. (It felt so good). Also currently having one of the best weekends in 2015 - shopping, good food, and family time.

I guess it's time to get back on my study grind, though there isn't actually anything to study for. "Do not put off til tomorrow what you can do today", am I right? Okay, I feel so damn matured. Someone give me a pat on the back.

Sunday, May 3, 2015


Hong Kong, 01/2014

There is something so ugly about relationships and what they do to people - as if there is a certain evil lurking around two people in a relationship, slowly but surely transforming them into horrible versions of their original selves. More jealous. More sensitive. More demanding. More spiteful. At this point in life, I definitely see more bad than good coming out of any relationship.

But that's just me.

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

There are good days, and there are bad days.


...tough people do

Monday, April 20, 2015


I don't even know myself at all,
I thought I would be happy by now